All adds up

I'm getting really discouraged and frustrated, and its all adding up. Just read S8's post on her office's dress code, and i commented that i don't have any image now. Previously i would still use lipstick and mascara, and wear blouses or pants, but now i'm in jeans and t-shirts daily, with not even a glimpse of lipstick. Why bother? I walk around the whole day with a waterfall on my face and by 10am i'm already all sticky and frustrated. It doesn't help that my skin condition is now pimply and freckly! Ah Choo reminded me to use a sunblock, but what's the point when i'll just "wash" it off?

Work is frankly, like shit. How i wish i can just press the button and flush it all away! Somehow the 2 men that C interviewed can't make it. One Indian and one Chinese. Both don't listen to me. The I disappeared for 3 days -- mil or something like that apparently died -- then turned up for less than 4 hours today and then told C he is taking half day. For what? Just so he can get the PH pay today? The C yaya-papaya and didn't want to ask me questions about the deployment Ah Choo & i did for his bloody building. Then when i told him to do the night deployment, he just "you here, you there" to the staff. When i reminded him on their working hours, he said i didn't tell him. I shot back, telling him that he has been walking around the whole day talking to them, and why didn't he ask them? Even if he didn't ask them, knowing there are M'sians & PRCs, shouldn't he ask me? I told him too that if he doesn't ask, i will take it that he knows. Afterall, how would i know what he doesn't know? Ah Choo also had it from him. Tell him one thing, "wa zhai, wa zhai". Kanasai!!! (oops, this is supposed to be a polite blog...)

My temper is getting worse and worse. C only adds fuel to an already smoldering pile! "be patient, let us settle then we get rid of the supervisors not performing!" "be patient, set up is like this one, after 1 month you can stay in your office whole day and relax!" But what does he do? "C, how can like that, whine-whine-whine..." *ring-ring* "E! this guy will go back, i agree with xxx..." "C, you never give me... whine-whine-whine..." *ring-ring* "E! You still haven't give her the staff? hurry up!"

I've had it! He changes the decisions Ah Choo or i make once the foremen whines to him without listening to us, so what does that make her and me? Why hire me as the manager and she as the supervisor then? The staff will only know to go to him if they can't get what they want from us! And the best part? He actually told Ah Choo to do the time card for a cleaner, just because "我没有时间, 我的时间是珍贵的!" And who said that? A cleaner. So it means both of us are free enough and our time isn't important? So the cleaner cannot come in to punch card, but Ah Choo has to come in early to do so for her? And he expects a supervisor to punch card for someone else? Sometimes i think he has no 原则. How can i tell the staff not to punch cards for others when the mgr has asked a supervisor to do so for another? Does this mean that this cleaner is above all others?

Dear has gone off for a riding trip. I didn't join him cos i wanted to complete the schedule before dinner, so we can stay out later tonight. I feel bad about it. He told me about going for a ride and asked me if i want to come along, but how can i when i've stuff to do? The schedule was given to C for his comment in early mar and till now he has not looked at it. The time has passed and i've to adjust it. C has time to do it for South and he gets his wife to help. Me? I've to do it alone. no help!

Yesterday morning, CCS called me and the stoopid accounts girl as good as accused me of encashing a $5k cheque and keeping the money. I told her that i wouldn't be so stupid as to take a measly $5k! If i want to take loads of money and run off, i would take at least $5mil or $50mil! A miserable $5000? Anyway, i told them i had not received the cheque since i submitted the request and i didn't chase for it because i knew the company has no money. I'm glad i told Sam that i haven't received the amount for it before i left, so right after that call i called him to complain. If they want, go report police la! Then i'll hantam them for slandering me!

I told dear that although he works late, at least once he comes back, he doesn't bring his paperwork with him. His time at home is all for home, unlike me. I told him too that i feel like telling Sam that i quit, but felt that was bad cos its night already. So how? sms him now that's its day? But its PH and he needs the rest too. So tomorrow ba... Even though i haven't found a job, i can't take it there anymore. I'll probably tell him i'm giving him my 2 weeks notice but i'll serve until i've trained the new person what to do.

Submitted another application today. Wanted to submit one more but its at Jln Batera. That's near the training ground, right at Lim Chu Kang... Maybe that's why the post is available! haha! Please please call me...